Fanatic

One thing I fear about being a real Christian is I am about to called a fanatic. When I decided to going to the church more often, and when I decided to being more faithful than I usually do, there is one little fear inside me that everyone around me going to call me a fanatic, “too much Christian”, weird, and else. To be honest, I am scared too that I am being a fanatic.

But when I look back my life-timeline, and if I can draw my own graphic of life, I clearly see that I become someone better in the time I come close to my God. It is like He changed me into someone new, someone I didn’t recognize before. He affected me in everything I did, every decision I made, everything inside and outside of me. He taught me about this life and how I suppose to live this life - in His own way which most of the time made me amazed. And believe it or not, He still does it until today.

If He does so much beautiful things in my life, then He deserves to have my love and my lifetime-thank you. If now people see those kind of “fanatic” people differently, weirdly, with one eye closed – that’s because maybe they don’t see what “fanatic” people already see. They see that this life is beyond their power, that the only one great God loves them and takes care of their life, and so do the other people in this world. All is written by the same powerful hand.

If I may say, they are not fanatic. They are just people who loves their Jesus very much.